Attention.

    I am currently sitting in my room, while listening to the rain dance on my balcony and watch the sun so desperately try to sneak through the clouds.... ( I had to make it sound more romantic... love that stuff) And thinking over the past week. I have had many conversations with many very close to me. Key thing to do that helps heal? Talk about it. Been speaking with my mom who is the worlds most amazing woman. I also spoke with my sister and my best friends who know my heart and my intent on everything I do really. And bringing my obstacle out to surface I have already pealed back some dead skin.  So if you, have yet to voice something that you have been hiding, bring it to the top, and if someone around you does not want to listen write to me and I will be happy too.
  The thing is,  in talking, you slowly start to find the core reason. Weight, has always been talked about with my friends in middle school and highschool and in my family in some cases. Due to all those talks dating back to since I could remember, it is always on my mind. I am quick to encourage other in their beauty, yet refuse to see my own. That sucks! Not to sound all selfish but I wanna mean a thank you when I hear a compliment, I am not about being like..." oh thank you, but you look nicer." I wanna be like damn straight I look good. ( well, perhaps not that cocky but you get the idea right?) I wanna walk around my house naked and feel so comfortable in my own skin. As I should, lol because I am not trading out. So, in doing so. What ARE the aspects of your body you do love and admire that no one has? Me? I love my toes. They are cute to me. I love my eyes, because no matter how I try to hide emotions, they show it all. I also love my butt... Lets just say I put the ASS in assets. I love being a white girl with booty. It's an honor really:)
  Now I  know, this topic is one that is not easily dealt with. I spoke it out because I refuse to be one to let it take hold of me.  And I want the same for every woman out there. I mean every word I say and write when I talk about the womanly figure being completely compelling and stunning. I man will not stand there looking at a woman's figure and say eww she really needs to lose that and this and blah blah blah..... But what a man will do? Say eh.... that girl has no confidence and self worth.... why don't we start changing that?
 First off, to begin with a lil intro!!! We are made in the image of God. As written in Genesis. Meaning, a God who is perfect, found complete joy in creating us, and He said himself, it was good. And even better yet, not one of us are alike in image. We all have unique attributes, and I adore it!
  I just got back from hanging with one of my girls! Crazy saturday night in LA watching a chick flick and eating tons of gluten free snack! Talking about all the insecurities women have in their selves which make them take it out on their body, mind, and spirit, and also on the man they may be with, love or like.  Not the best thing! Poor guys try to encourage and then we bite their noses off for it.... Once a month is ok! But all the time is no good.
  So whatever it is you are struggling with, take it out on paper first. Write about it, and be honest. But the thing is, you must talk about it and bring it to attention. You are worth it. Promise. :)
   And P.S. One thing I love to do when I am super full... ( do not make fun.. hehe) I love blowing out my tummy and seeing what I will look like preggers...... and I like what I see haahhahahaha.

  Ok. LOVE U!