Oh my goodness!!! I am not good with this word. The P word!! PATIENCE!! I have the worst road rage, the worst!!!! So my patience always falls short for that big time..... actually not sure that will ever change :). hehehe. However, being patient for other things such as career, and love, are slowly getting stronger.
Career wise, slow and steady is always good. But, because I am a go-getta, the whole being patient and trusting God the open and close the doors for what is to come has always been alot easier to say than do. In the entertainment industry, because everything moves so quickly, when you are going slowly along, you feel as if you are not getting anywhere, when really you are moving steadily and building your whole character the correct way. So, whenever you are feeling as if things are stopped and going nowhere, then let yourself be still for a second, step outside of the picture around you, look at the big view, and breath. Because, it is going to be ok.
Now. Love. For one thing as a side note.... I am writing this after four hours of sleep, and have pandora on, listening to mariah tunes, and now Boyz II men singing one sweet day! hahahhaha such an amazing song though. So maybe while you read this soak in it ;) hahha just kidding! Ok, no more side notes. I do happen to think I am a bit patient for love. I mean, not having a relationship and being careful on waiting for the ONE! However, I have been a bit more out there than I usually am. Perhaps because I am just comfortable in me and not afraid to let someone get a taste.... But do they deserve it? Ugh.... I kissed someone else again this weekend... sorry mommy! lol. He captured me, he was charming, admirable, and adventurous, and a good kisser too. We were under the open sky!!!!! So romantic!!!
However, does being patient for love aslo mean being patient for the physical also? I think so. Keeping even more of yourself for your beloved. I tend to open myself up very easily about my life to others, but, when it comes to letting someone fully in.... no one has ever gotten that far. I was talking to a friend of mine the other night, and he was saying that he holds alot of him in only for those closest to him. Family and then when he gets married, he will share everything with his wife. I think that is so special. I used to always say that I would be so patient and hold everything in..... yeah.... that lasted maybe a day :-/. ahhah. I love seeing how people wait in their own ways.
The point I am trying to get across, is that your beloved is going to worth the wait, and the tears you may have already cried over them. I have kept alot of big things for the man I will call mine. At times I have been asked to let everything go. But I already love him too much to do such a thing..... And so!!! Because my mind has been thinking..... more and more. I am even more intent on saving my kisses. For someone I am completely in like with! Because let me tell you.... the difference between a kiss with chemistry and passion is so much more enticing than that of a quick fun one.
MMMMMM my man is gunna love love love me down! :)
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